A Day to Be Me

Today started and ended like every other day, with nothing particularly special happening anywhere along the path.  But that is what has made it stand out in mind as a day worth typing about.  A regular day where I felt happy, secure, confident, and unfettered by sadness, regrets or anger.
For about the past month and half, I have felt sadness, regret and anger while trying to digest the break up that occurred between my now ex and myself.  It wasn't an easy experience, or one I even saw coming really.  It felt like a freight train hitting me in the middle of the night while I slept peacefully in my bed- part of what made it all the worse.  I moved out of the stage of blaming myself about two weeks ago, but then began to be angry and want to blame him.  Thankfully, it seems that that phase has passed too.  Now, now I can begin to heal and find a way to truly be okay with what has happened.
The events leading up to the end of tonight do not matter much.  It is the simple fact that today, life lead me on a small journey.  One that concluded with me hanging out with my two closest friends in Korea, wandering through the streets of Itaewon and Noksapyeong and finding that our feet lead us to a small noodle joint.  We sat at a small table, sipped on either beer or wine in the evening glow of this massive city that we all live in.  While relaxing at this tiny little eatery, enjoying some delicious food,  the three of us held a really fun conversation over the possibility of extraterrestrial life in the universe.  We smiled, laughed, and simply enjoyed each others company.  We teased each other, were sarcastic, threatened one another, and sometimes sounded downright mean.  Deep down, this is our way of showing that we care, especially for the guys.  (It's nice to find people who understand my way of showing my love and do the same themselves!)  After dinner, the three of us parted ways and headed home.
It was nothing fancy, or super special- just a good night, with good friends. 
That is what life is about for me really.  I hope it is for you too.
When life goes well and I am able to enjoy it the way I did tonight, what more could I ask for?  Right now, this is what I want and what I need most.  Quality time with good people who can help my heart recover, heal and find it's center again.  As I once said on facebook, it's okay to be a misfit as an expat, because deep down everyone is a misfit here. ♥

Much love,
Me