How to: Get Back Up Again

I have officially spent 3 days in Seoul now, and never before have I felt such homesickness.  It's scarey to be honest, especially since I've never felt such a feeling before.  Never at a sleep away camp during elementary or middle school, never while visiting family or friends, never while at college even.  So before this I was blessed, and now I think God has decided it is time for me to learn the value of family and friends.  I have this deep fear inside me that all my friends will forget about me, I won't make any over here, and I will be left to fall into this void where I am alone.  Today, I acknowledged that fear within myself, writing out and forcing myself to visually face every fear I was feeling on the inside.  A little later, I replied to an old friend on skype, admitting my fears.  He has been in my life for almost 7 years now, and knows me better then almost anyone.  I know he will understand once he reads my messages.  Knowing this fact alone, as odd as it sounds, comforted me.  I then messaged another friend asking him for help and strength during this time.  I admitted my weakness to another.  Once I did these things, it was amazing the weight that was lifted off my shoulders.  I turned on some music, allowed myself to get carried away by TobyMac, and began to feel a pulse come back into my step.  It felt amazingly good honestly!  I was even able to be happy, enjoy the idea of being in Korea for a year (I had been struggling with this since I missed my friends so much), and knew that now I could suck up the fear that was remaining inside and push myself to just move on.  (Of course it helps to have friends I can talk to about my fears, worries, etc. with as well!)  Well, I'm off to bed.  For pictures and the like see my facebook page.
Love, hugs, & kisses,
리타
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Rita